Well, not really…but I woke up at 5pm again!  It’s a sign!…yes, a sign that I’m not getting proper sleeping hours haha.  Oh well, try again tomorrow, right?

Well, it’s 7am.  This seems to be a pattern getting worse.  Not sure what it is.  I’ve flipped the pattern a few times.  Usually I have to stay up for about 24 hours and go to bed early.  Then I’ll wake-up early the next day and the pattern will be ok for about a month or so.  It’s an ongoing issue.  Most people have a balanced wake and sleep cycle.  What happens if you have to stay up a bit longer each day in succession?  I’m not suggesting that’s my problem, but what if that were the case?  I would have no idea for a solution to that.

So, a huge problem I have is with my subconscious. What do you do when your subconscious tries to battle your conscious mind? What does that mean? Is that even possible? Well I’ll try to look into these questions for you and explain what’s going on.

So, most people have two different modes, sleep and awake. During the shift in these modes a person will usually also change from their subconscious (sleep) to their conscious mind (being awake). For some people, there may be a delay in how fast this shift takes place. This is where the problem comes in…I have my subconscious fighting my conscious mind. A lot of people may be able to relate to this. An example would be when you wake up from your alarm but your body tells you to go back to sleep even though you need to be at work in 10 minutes. If you don’t consciously “realize” that you are late for work, well, then your subconscious won that battle.

The problem I have is that my subconscious is a fighter in a different weightclass than my conscious mind. My conscious mind doesn’t stand a chance! I’ve had numerous conversations with people while I’ve been “sleeping” before…even a couple on the phone. I’d like to be able to say that my subconscious mind is unconscious but that’s not the case either…he/she/it is extremely deceiving. I don’t even think my conscious and subconscious minds talk to each other (well maybe sometimes, but not often).

My subconscious mind is a real trouble maker and (don’t tell him/she/it) I wish I could hurt him/she/it badly! I’m lucky that I’ve never been fired for being late to a job but I usually have to use my creativity to save “my ass” after my subconscious has messed-up my waking time for that day. My subconscious will make me late for work, miss work, miss appointments, phone calls, important events, and well anything else…heck, it doesn’t even matter if it involves a loud noise or fire! I manage to sleep through anything…well almost anything. I’ve resorted to using three different alarm clocks and even still that sometimes doesn’t work.

See, you might confuse my subconsciousness with unconsciousness. Well, I assure you, this isn’t the case…it might be better if it was. At least if I was “unconscious”, I wouldn’t have to blame my subconscious mind. I know it’s my subconscious mind for many reasons. The main one being that my alarms usually wake me up! I’ll wake up and I can turn them off without even “knowing it”. Yes, you read that right! And get this, one of them is across my room. I don’t sleep-walk and never have so at least I don’t have that to worry about. Although it’s not reassuring to know that you can do some crazy tasks while not even knowing it. Like I said, I’ve talked on the phone before and even had conversations with people who’ve come into my room. I used to not make much sense when I talked to people but I think I frustrated people so much that my subconscious got a hold of this “vibe” and realized if he/she/it wanted to stay in control that it needed to fool people. So now, I can have full conversations (when I say “I”, I am referring to he/she/it ) without many repercussions other than of course having no recollection what so ever later.

So, you might think that being able to do things with your subconscious would save you time. Yeah, it could save you a lot of time if you trusted him/she/it. But when you don’t, it’s scary just going to sleep at night. You always worry what kind of new problems the next day will bring. Will you still have a job? What time will you wake up? Did you say something stupid to someone?

You might think that I’m just being sarcastic, not serious and even making some of this up. Well, I will say that while my comments may be sarcastic, I am being 100% honest about the way things are. It’s not fun to have plans to do something the next day, go to sleep, and the next day when you wake up, realize that you slept through the whole day and “messed” it up. Have you ever been woken-up by a call from your employer wondering where you are? It’s not a good feeling! Especially when you have good work ethics, wanted to go to work and are trying “your best”. It feels like someone purposely sabotaged you. The worst part is, the person who sabotaged you was yourself!

With that said, this is to declare my subconscious the winner. Now, please move out of my head while I’m still sane!